Sien-nezzzz

Bak home for 10 days already...i think i use to the PIG life..sleep early at 10pm n wake up at 7am. food is ready served. the oni thing tat i nid to do is jz moved to the plc whr the food is n open my mouth to eat.

This week i hav my hospital attachment at Sibu Hospital with 2 pretty gals- Winnie and Susan.

Again one word to describe. Sienzz.. Free aircon, free talk, free sample, free food. these r the ones i think i get benefits from.hahaha... But actually is not tat bad. V owes ask the Penolong Pharmasi got anything v can help.. V packed med, read label, help to fill med. One thing interesting, i have learn to run the TDM machine. Yeah.. is nice.. tat old machine (can be antique in the museum lo) produces lots of sound but it stil can does its job..stil not bad ma..

Attended few talks, presentation of case studies..learnt a lot from there..reli hope can attend more..

The thing i do the most in the attachment is chit chat wf winnie n susan. V tok nonstop. watever oso v can tok. sumtime even no topic to continue. v try to squeeze anything to tok. reli funny..

Hope v can continue enjoying. but my sien-nezz stil wf me..bak home..first thing i do is on my laptop..at least i feel there is sth wf me..haih...WHY?? WHY?? my life like tat....

Move on

The more I know, the easier for me to let go. Yea..this applies to me. I owes tel myself i have to move on, but the progress is slow. However, everytime once i know sth more, i wil pain n sad a while but after that i can move further more.

Last nite i out wf my old fren studying in UMS. I admit i reli wan to ask them more abt her thing over there. I keep reminding myself i cannot do so. I need to move on. I make it. We dun touch that topic at all. I tot it reli over.

Today i get to know sth again. Again it is hurt n pain again. I cant escape from knowing it. I found that, althought the things that i heard are hurt, i dun hav strong feeling again. Is this the sign that tat i hav let go? Erm..mayb. I hope so.

During the time i get those news, a song appears in my mind. '我爱的人'

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她 真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
她真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深

This song totally suits me.

However, its time for me to continue to move on.

Ron tel me tat i shud not get the new one just to forget the old one. Is unfair. People wil hate me.
I agree. I wil let everything go soon. I wil be myself again. Nth is impossible. This is life.

So what...I CAN DO it. Yeeaaah!!

Emptiness

The moment reach Sibu, i feel reli empty. reli down.

I miss the trip a lot.
I miss my friends a lot.
I miss the laughter.
I miss the joy.
I miss the pain and gain that v went thru.
I miss every moment of the trip.

It takes time for me to recover.

Sem 6 Trip

After Sem 6 EOS, 21 of us went to Sabah. 1st station is Sandakan then only to Kota Kinabalu.

• 1st , have to thank our organizer- Grace. She organized it so well that even in Sandakan, she arranged the transports and fed us like pig.
• 2nd, have to thank to Grace’s parent. They paid our every meal. V r reli guilty. The seafood Bak Kuh Teh, seafood restaurant, dan gong mee at sim sim, egg tart, lou sai café, ice dessert.
• 3rd, have to thank to See san and her parent. I stayed at her place. Aircon owes on. Tv owes on. Food n drink owes ready. Washing machine is ready for us oso. Thanks for see san’s mum to bring us to hav 2 rounds of breakfast. Feeding us a pig again. See san ta bao cheese tart, egg tart..reli nice..
• 4th, Vanessa lim. She bcum our driver. Drive here n there. She reli a nice gal to tok to..nice to mix wf. Thanks a lot.
• 5th, san jin. He provided transport and plc to stay. Thanks a lot too.

After 3D2N in SDK, v all went to KK.

• Staying at summer lodge, tour around KK, KK country side, kudat, kundasang with the bus. Whole bus is urs. Reli wonderful.
• Great experience of water rafting. Sitting in the trolley (wil upload the photo later), transporting wf Sabah KTM. Water rafting reli an unforgettable event. dropping into the rapid river, paddling in the boat with strong current, ‘swimming’ wf yee lyn in the strong rapid (v unable to get into the boat b4 the next rapid).
• Mount KK is the most fantastic one for the trip. V climbed in rain. Even climb to the peak in rain. V forced our guide to let us to climb although the guides had cancelled it due to heavy rain. 12 of us managed to reach the LOW PEAK’s of mount KK. Extremely cold.1°C .strong wind. Slippery rock. The feeling in the progress of climbing to the peak is such amazing.

19 may 2009 .the trip end. Hope there will be next trip again.

暂时的

暂时性的松了一口气。四天的拼战，精力的耗费，精神的折磨，时间的拼搏，压力的逼迫，睡眠的不足。终于到了休息站了，松一松，歇一歇。

所有人都在今天考试完后，各自安排活欢乐时光来补偿所失去的时间，精神，精力。不去做这是的人，一定是不正常的（没有任何讽刺的成分）。

今天我完全的没有把我MSK notes拿出来。我觉得是一件好事。我要开心。不想离开这短暂且让人如释重负的休息站。重新面对残酷的现实。

我也希望这短暂的开心可以使我好的开始。人总要学着成长。人生的历练是在所难免的，不在乎开心或不开心，但求它可以成为你成长中的一部分，决不后悔你所做的决定。想起一首歌，“是你决定我的伤心”。另一首歌写着：‘是你带我找到另一个天堂，远比想象中的美’。真的是你吗？？？？还是我自己？？？

今天过得不错。不是很充足，但还蛮踏实的。做了我要做的事。哈哈哈。。我觉得会变得个充实但我写完这日记。已经12.41am 咯。一天的结束，也是另一天的开始，另一个新希望。

好了。。到了尾声。夜幕低垂，人烟也静。回带被窝去咯！！！